Down But Not Out

by Stephanie on August 31, 2015 · 2 comments

in Heavy Stuff

The last eight days have been seriously rough. Last week I was in the worst depressive episode I’ve had in months. It was hard to get out of bed every day. It was hard to do anything, like be a normally functioning adult. I felt really bad emotionally and physically.

Luckily I have some people in my life who understand and were there for me. They sat with me and watched TV when that was all I could do. They talked with me and cheered me up as much as they could. They gave me excuses to get out of the house when I wouldn’t have on my own. Things seemed like they were getting better for a few days and then I fell back down the rabbit hole again. This all on top of not feeling well physically.

The thing is that I know myself better and I’m able to manage my depression better than I used to do. I know what I can do to help myself even though it is still hard. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. All of this doesn’t make it easier really, it just means I’m better equipped.

I’m coming back slowly, feeling a little better both mentally and physically. That should be obvious just by the fact that I’m blogging!

Depression will continue to knock me down from time to time, but don’t count me out.  I’m just working my way back.


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Denise August 31, 2015 at 10:09 PM

The friends who stick around when it gets really dark are seriously life savers – I’m so grateful that you have those folks in your life. Writing helps when I can force myself to do it, so I hope you have the same experience.

Take care of you!


Stephanie August 31, 2015 at 10:54 PM

Yes! Those friends are the best. I hope you have them too! If not, reach out to me.

Writing helps a lot but like others things that help it is so hard to do in the midst of it all.


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