A Good Run

by Stephanie on November 1, 2011 · 0 comments

in Running

I’ve been in a running slump.  Was that obvious?  I thought it might have been since I haven’t written about it in, oh, a month.  After the Disney half, which was a physically, emotionally, and mentally trying race, I had no desire to run.  Which led to the running thing happening exactly twice since then.  Once as part of my Winter Fitness test (1 mile time trial) and once with my roommate where everything hurt and I was horribly discouraged.  For a while I wasn’t sure I’d ever get back into it.

Until last night.

Last night I ran at the gym on a treadmill.  I ran a little over 3 miles.  I worked through some knee pain at the beginning and had to relearn how to run on a treadmill without hurting myself (this has been an issue in the past… I really do have to change my form!).  I kept at a faster than normal pace for about 20 minutes.  I felt GOOD.  Like really good. 

I am so hard on myself people.  You don’t know.  And if you do know because you’re this hard on yourself, I feel sorry for you.  After the Disney half I was so disheartened that I honestly thought about giving up all of my running ambitions.  Bam.  Done.  Never again.  I know that sounds crazy to some of you but its how I am.  My (sometimes too) high expectations have often driven me to excel in sports, school, and work.  Not living up to those same expectations can be devastating and it takes me a long time to recover.

Last night it was as if the sweat was cleansing me of my bad feelings towards running and giving me a chance to start new.  I can let the past be past.  I can set new goals or I can just run, without a goal.

Last night running was fun again.  And I am so glad.

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